Changing Everyday.

You repeat yourself because you think I am not listening to a word your saying, but the truth is that I am holding onto every word you say with a tight grasp. You tell me that you just want the best for me, but yet you're not there to help guide me. You tell me to grow up, your childhood is over, but you don't tell me how to grow up, you expect me to do it by myself. You tell me that you basically have no faith in me and you think it affects me, but really it doesn't. You tell me that I disappointed you, is it to get a reaction? Because yes I am sorry, but I am not going to react to it because I don't want to give in. I tell you I am fine, I tell myself that I am fine, but that's only because I don't want to cry, I don't want to break. I am not the same kid as I was when you last saw me. I change on a daily basis. You tell me to tell you about me and I smile and tell you who I am today, but will I be the same person tomorrow? That is always an adventure. The one thing that won't change in me is my name, my birthday, and the basics. But when it comes to me physically, emotionally, mentally, and relationally, I am changing everyday. The person I was yesterday is slowly fading and the person I will be tomorrow is starting to show.