Once Again: My Eyes were Open.

I was woken from a deep sleep at 2am this morning from a friend who this girl had just broken up with him and the text message read, "I gave you my heart, so you could tear it apart. I've held onto you for too long, I guess it's time to move on." Now this text message was not meant for me. I guess the girl and I have the same name, but obviously mines spelled different. So I quickly text him back and say, "Dude first of all you texted the wrong person and second of all it's 2am GO TO BED!" And of course I got the, "Oh dude Halie, sorry about that one." Then after I didn't reply back because I didn't want to start a conversation with him at 2am, I started to think, "I gave you my heart, so you could tear it apart. I've held onto you for too long, I guess it's time to move on." That's kind of deep. Like deeper than deep, but I know this guys heart. I know that he was just completely heart broken and there was nothing I could do about it. But that was deep to the point of I still am thinking about it. I mean I know it's just a girl that he probably won't be thinking of this time next week, but my eyes have been open in a way that is hard to explain. Like lately, I have been hiding my feelings and emotion a lot more. A few nights ago I shot up at 3am and then whispered, "You're pathetic Halie." The when I lied back down I thought, "Wow what a way to let yourself insecurity show Halie." Then I realized that you know, growing up doesn't mean you can't show feeling, it just means your older and have more responsibilities. So I started to cry like hard, but really silently because I didn't want to wake anybody in the house up. I got out of my bed and moved to the this chair in my room. Once I was all done crying, I felt really good. So this is where I am getting at here. Sometimes crying really is a good thing because sometimes you just really need to let it all out. Sometimes that you don't realize how much happiness is such a good thing and that sometimes you don't know how truly happy you are until your sad for just a short time. I still don't like crying especially in front of anyone, with the exception of a few people. But really you can't hold your feelings in forever. So what I learned from that was growing up doesn't necessarily mean you won't have feelings, it just means you'll have a better graps of the feelings you have.