Forever Is A Long Time.

They say that I am a product of a somewhat broken home. Mom and dad, they still together? No, but that's not going to stop me from following my dreams, anymore. I used to let it get in the way, saying well I'll end up just like my parents. I once was afraid. Forever is a long time. I am the person that I really don't want to be. But I am afraid of change. I don't want to be torn to pieces. Forever is a long time. Why do you say until I do to until death do you part, if you leave before the death? Forever is a long time. I don't want to hold onto this any longer. Sorry that I am not so enthusiastic about this whole love thing, but I am not really thirlled about this Valentines day thing. Why do we need to have a holiday for love when you should love all year long? Do you really understand my point? Forever is a really long time. I know I keep saying that, but do you understand? No? FOREVER IS A LONG TIME!!!! There you go I yelled it. I am getting irratated. The wedding vow says until death do you part. I am seeing way too many bail outs. I am being a poster child for a friend of mine because her dad's bailing. She looks at me, sees my dad not really there in my life, and sees that I have it all under control. Only because I don't want to break, I don't want people seeing the side of me that will cause sympathy. I don't want people to say, "Oh poor Halie." ANYMORE!! I just want to make it through life. Forever is a long time. Please just grasp that concept for me.