No Longer.

The lies that you filled my head with for the longest time, you will not fill them with that any longer. There's a fine line between ignorance and stupidity and for the longest time you had me over the line of ignorance, but now that I know the truth I refuse to cross the line of stupidity. How long did you expect me to believe your lies? Just pour me out onto the pavement and then try to fill me up again. My question now is are you really who you say you are? I gave you every part of me without knowing that I was doing so. You trapped me, you suffocated me, you blinded me, you brain washed me. Did you ever think that I might had something to say? You told me that I was useless, you told me that you I was far from beautiful, you told me that this world is better off without me, you told me that I was an accident, but really you were just trying to get me to not believe the truth. I had friends who told me opposite from what you told me. I had friends talking against what you were telling me. But did I listen? No because I was blinded from the truth, I listened to you over them. Why would I do that? Who was louder? You or them? You are a liar because I am not useless and even though I can't really see it, I am beautiful and this world is not better off without me and I am sure not an accident. Why would you lie to me? Why would you tell me these things? I know I still have some things to work out, but no longer. Those nights where I should have cried, but didn't I regret. The night that I lied in bed staring at the ceiling and had the hugest headache of my life (last night) and said, "I shouldn't hide my feelings any longer." and cried not only because my head hurt so bad, but I realized that nothing made sense anymore, that nothing is right when I listened to this side of me that told me everything against what was the truth. I realized that I no longer had to live that way. No longer am I listening to those thoughts. I shook off all of the pain and my broken heart started mending again. Even though it was all I had, I wanted to break up the madness.